Back Again

Over the last few yrs, i.e. 3-4 yrs my life was in doldrums, uncertain & unstable in every which way u would want to look at it. the only thing good abt it was that i was employed & outwardly i was doing a reasonable good job at it. however internally my mental state was close to a typhoon. In my heart anger, grief, disappointment & helplessness used to rise & crash like gigantic waves constantly thru the day for all those yrs. Having lived thru this period, I now have grown more paranoid in almost everything i do. In some ways its good, i think in 100 different ways before i decide or do anything (perhaps its only the paranoid who survive?)

anyways but due to those experiences, it has left me scarred, hurt & angry. Due to the turmoil, i regressed mentally. frankly as i look back i was never in any shape whatsoever but still took gmat a few times. Surely now it seems so foolhardy. needless to mention but those efforts & score fell like an amateur's effort in building the house of cards & i regressed more into this abyss. funny thing life is...the more u try to get up & sort yrself out, the more it does to put u down.

however life as they say is stranger than fiction, due to certain turn of events things are beginning to look good (can u believe it?). anyways we in hindus hv a saying that God has given us pain, He will give us painkillers too (nah :), but ya God has been kind lately.)

i feel tht i'm ready to be hit again. its gmat time folks!

i want to prove to myself that i hv it in me to excel.

life feels gr8 & challenging again!

Wish me luck,grit,common sense & motivation.

i'll try to keep everyone posted on my travails to discover myself.